Well mixed feelings have been hampering me in all dat i do
Every single day i couldnt do wad i was aiming to do
Pple say i'm emo. well guess wad emo-ing is better than havin a default face like someone i know
I'd juz realized dat nth can ever make me dat happy again
It may seem unfair but that is how life goes so face it

Man i do really sound emo, don't i
well life is gettin kinda bored when i'm alone
Wad to do?
haiz anyways too little to talk abt nowadays
Especially....
Well wad i'm aimin for may not really be wad i want in the end
This is wad i'm tryin to figure out
I heard this from somewhere n ive been tryin to make da most out of da sayin
Well, my brain hurts lol

anyways, randomness mayb da new me....

Busy playing guitar; vivo land!

Woots, today was great
For da first time, NO CHOIR!!
LOL

Anyways, today started off in quite a wierd manner
Had hl n i thought that we were suppose to run or walk
But NO!!!!, we juz had to so called prac to dance to da stupid national day song for aces day
wakau i was like wth but still i got hyper wit kangmin, huiting n cuiping at da bck
We were like monkeys man
ok.. mayb not so bad
HAHA
Well after dat, we had math
Ok bit damn sleepy
Poa, almost had a test but cher stupidly gave da test as our previous homework, so no test!!
Den recess, nth much happen
English was damn crap lah ha dot list down summary points for like 15 mins n do nth for da nxt 15 mins
Den went for prayers.
Came back for focus study as always.
Had malay lesson n did some compo
Den i juz had to be asked to collect da papers
n one bitch just couldnt wait for me to come n anyhow scold me
Ass!
Dat really spoilt my mood man
Den had a math lesson
Did binomial theorem n i forgot like everything abt it
Damn really nd to study more man

Finished focus at 5 n went to play soccer under da void deck near school wit john, teck chuan, shaoquan n jia xun lol wierd, i know
Went bck to mft to see da others play soccer
Den went hm wit min n shahari
LOl den ya lah dat shld b all for today
Ouh one last thing, when i was otw hm, i was hearing a song n da lyrics said

If this is a test,
I'm losing my shit
Would it kill you to care?
As much as i did?
If this a test,
I'm wasting my breath
You're a stranger i know well
And not at all

Well, i'm was trying to reflect my life wit this words
I tried to not ask n i really did me good...LOL
Nw im so bored... no life...
N tmr got speech day perf n im so tired to do anything.... T^T

Busy playing guitar; vivo land!

Today nth much happen
Had physics lesson in da mornin till 10
den went jammin, well at least i think it as jammin, wit ezz, asnira n kames
Ok... wierd
Nvm we jammed like nth lah
Only after asnira n kames left, that was when me n ezz practiced kelsey like hell
Man , why do i keep forgetting da lyrics....
Damn
Den went to cwp wit ezz to eat again
LOL ate at LJS
Den went up n down to look at cds again
Den just when we r on our way home, ezz forgot to buy some stuff for his sis lol
so we stopped somewhere near da library n walked back to cwp....
Walau my legs sort of hurts man
Den i decided to buy some more pics to add to my collection of guitar pics at home
lol
Den i came back, rested n did loads of math hmwrk...n surprisingly,
i still hav lots more to go
? . ?
Damn
so yeah, today was cool'
Well, still i feel damn empty inside me, duno why
Is it da reason for me no havin fun when i shld hav?
Anyways, hopin tmr would be better, as always.....

Busy playing guitar; vivo land!

Fiew! After da 2.4 run durin pe,
Nvr hav i felt so... ahh how do they say it
Hmm...relieved?

Well, nth much to say
Sch is laggy
Life is monotonous
Home is quiet
Love is not there

Wad more would i ask for?
A better life?

Well, now im stuck wit this lame shit attitude of mine
so im so sorry if ive did anything to my friends to hurt them
Sorry peeps

Well tmr is da crunching time
MY SYF!!!
Haiz hope i could do well n do my friends n conductor proud..
=)
I'll try to smile tmr...

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Sch events are becomin a disaster
First, da learning journey was so boring...
Second, it rained during our last sportz carnival, only after our mass games
Third, it rained again durin our 2.4km mass run at IJC

Wakau, it will always rain juz before da sec 4 start da event
Hiaz, y so sway?
Still i managed to run at least one round around da school track within 2 mins mayb?
Anyways, this week was a very hectic week.
Eventhough there were like no focus study for me, i still had to go for choir everyday coz of syf
Well we're aimin for gold, but sadly, i think our standard now is like a bronze
N i tink it's all my fault lol

Yesterday was da stupid mass run day.
I was effing tired even though i didnt run coz da lessons were damn borrin
Lucky there was no focus study, if not, i'll faint
After mass run, i was suppose to go makan-ing wit cherie n alicia
But in the end, i became da lamp post again
I went wit ezz and hanis
I know i'm vry bad
Den went to mc and saw aida and arini who looked like they were datin
SRY
LOL
Anyways, we thought that we were the only ones in mc
Den came da nerd grp, woah, all waiting outside havin their illegal gathering
Den da muslims came n ezz was like trying to avoid them lol
Yeah, i did not have a great time eatin
Ezz was like tryin to take pics of me when i was eatin
Everyone knows that i'm not dat photogenic, but still....it was kinda of fun in a way

Dat was yesterday.
Today went not dat well too
Went to prayers wit ezz n min was m.i.a.
ezz came late and i had to get down from my bus at 888 n wait for his bus i was really long
Den we arrived late n had to squeeze our way through, but sadly, we prayed to da stairs, which was really cramped up..
I was like wth

Den wen to cwp to eat at banquet. I ate chicken rice, ezz ate chicken cutlet noodles.
Den went down to mj to buy leona. well it took like 45 mins for to finally decide on her
LOL
But it was worth it though
Loena Lewis ROX man!

Busy playing guitar; vivo land!

At LAST!!!
My comp has finished itz repair
It looks normal, i tink

Well, loads of thing come n go easily
My main focus now is to do wadever that i hav nt done b4 n make da best out of it
Hiaaaaz
Now im quite bored wit actually..
Thing kept on happening repeatedly.
Weird? I know.
Well, there's nth much i can do abt it anyways...

Sch...
As per normal....
Lessons, recess, lessons, focus study, cwp, home
This is like becoming my every weekday life...
Y does it seem so hard to keep up wit?

Well, home is not giving me much help in my problems
Ive tried to fade dat memory back
but no progress so far....

Is my life goin to turn into somethin unexpected?
Is this wad i really want for myself?
Is my life is goin to flow?
Is this da way im destined?
Am i goin to be da same forever?
Will i be able to find wad i really wan?
Will i be concealing this side of mine in midst of others?
Will i be alone after all this?

Many questions ring in my head each n every day
Tryin to be strong now
But wait n see, i will be to ever change to a better new...

Busy playing guitar; vivo land!