Tuesday, June 15, 2010
@12:44 PM
Now first post since poly started....
FUCK IT!
My life sucks ttm now!
Nothing is happening.....
All i do is either rot at home, watch a little movie or two once in a million years or do homework
This is all thanks to many, many things...I Made a mistake by goin to da school of EEE where grades really matter (cant relax)I Made a mistake of not joining a club in school (stupid move)I Made a mistake of goin into DASE 1A/03.(sorry but truth is..... u guys can never bond i tell u)I never did treasure my sec sch frens. Now they are floating away, slowly (fuck la)I'm an only child. I'm always saying dat pple have a deprived childhood, but in fact, im da onewho's having it. Fuck my dad who didnt allow me to get close to my cousins. I dont even know who my cousins are....Hence there was no such thing as sleepovers or goin out with cousins. The only time i get to see them is during hari raya or someone's wedding, dats it.....N, ive never once went overseas, not even malaysia.......fucking lame right my life. And since im da only child, i am always all alone. I play by myself, eat by myself....everything by myself. My neighbours are either older than me or dun wan socialize with me. That was last time. Now itz worst. My house is now like korea. My'dad' is north korea while my mum, grandma n grandpa is south. Im da (no-men land). Trust me. i dunno who to follow if my parents break apart. Bcoz of da ongoing war, now, there is no such thing as family outing! No overseas, no family or fren outing = fucking boring.i duno wad to do with my life now. i duno if i can stand it anymorefeel like i can just let go any moment nowBut i cant stand to bear to see how it will affect my mom if i do give up on life.She's da reason why im still keeping da effort to go on with life.without her, im nothingi dun even know wad to do without hertanx mum. ure da best!Tanx atuk and nenek oso! ur cool toodad....i got nth to say to u. u're trying to win my heart but itz too late now.Frens...I know dat im fucking irritating and lame most of the timeIm sorry.U guys are like my brothers and sisters.There'e no one i can share my thoughts with.N u guys call me names. i dun care. im like fucking hurt everytime i feel dat u fucking hate da sight of me, ok.....N i know dat some of you really hate me to the max but still hang out with meIm sorry to cause you soo much troubleOK from now on, if u dun wan to hang around me, just say so.I'll gladly leave u, since i know my prescence wont make any significant difference to ur livesNow being all alone is no problem for meI'm always alone......I'm not saying dat my frens now are nth to me. They mean alot to me. But itz juz dat i feel dat im not being a good fren to you all n that u're starting to get bored of me.Idk about u guys ah but i really hurts me when i see dat no one sees me a good fren, even though i always act like its's no big deal.Im always trying to make u guys smile no matter what, im always da one who does all the lame stuffs n being da monkey, coz i feel dats da only way i can get u guys to smile at me.I'm sorry if i've been such a nuisance to you guys.There'e lots more to say, but i guess i'll stop here.....Now itz all out. Well i dun think anyone reads my blog anymore...so no point saying this... i hope no one read this. .....
Busy playing guitar; vivo land!
